This is Cheryl - Welcome, to my life..

Rage = something that should be avoided at all cost, especially if it is in ME.

 

Thank you everyone for being patient with me these few days.

 

Nothing to update. Hospital food sucks. And that goes together with the environment.

 

I WANT MY LIFE BACK!

Nothing much to write. Just that I am feeling really lousy now, and there is no one to talk to online. Either they're busy or MIA. The guys are nothing but jerks who keep on asking the same old question 'are you open minded' or 'you want to cyber'. Men doesn't use their brains for sure. And I jolly well realise that long ago.

 

I feel lousy. Really.

I was a little too excited over the idea of getting a milo, I decided to get into my wheelchair (it is pink!) and rolled myself (and my drip) to the vending machine. Lightnings and thunders sounded as I wheeled along this glass corridor.

 

Then suddenly, I had this thought: damn, I better be quick about this.

 

It was when I reached when a stray lightning struck right through the glass and into the vending machine. All I heard is a bang and I was knock off the wheelchair. I was shocked stiff. Nurses around began to help me up, took care of the broken drip or whatever that was left of it. Blueblack on my hand, and my leg.

 

It was until half an hour later did I realise that I was so close to death. A few seconds more, and the lightning would have hit me instead.

 

Well, then again, I lived for yet another day. It was really encouraging to see the words Zann put on the comments post (and my friends did not even though they read about it. tsk tsk tsk).

 

Still, I just feel I am lucky to be alive. Somehow.

For those close pals, you know where I am situated right now. For those who ain't that sure, let me tell you: I am residing in a hospital in New York for a spinal operation. Since then, I found out things I should have left hidden from me. Things that bring up not just the past, but affect my future, and overall, my life.

 

While I am in New York, two of my best friends, Annabelle and Nicole, got to the hospital to accompany me. I was scared shitless about the operation that would take 16 hours in the operating theatre. I am worried about my own body. But here, the pals accompanied me through the ordreal and I am recovering since (they left on the day I am pushed into the deathrow room).

 

Well, happy ending, good friends, and what more should I asked for? That should have gotten me to put a full stop, but no. Nicole emailed me something that was not very pleasant.

 

She did not scold me. She wouldn't. We knew each other since Primary One, and have been best friends since. She told me that during the days they were at New York, my ex boyfriend (which is currently Annabelle's boyfriend) came with them. And he visited me when I am asleep. Hello? Why would you do that when you could have visited me in broad daylight? Am I going to eat you?

 

Then in Nicole's mail, she mentioned that he told her he still loved me (surprised), but he cannot betray Annabelle. He said that I am a bitch (i admit that in my own MSN) who went missing for 9 months without informing him (i know i am wrong). He wanted me back (i think i am missing the really interesting parts that nicole did not tell me).

 

Comes with next big surprise. He MSN me a few days ago, and yesterday, he tells me that while I and him are together, he already have another relationship with Annabelle. When I pressed him further, I realised that Annabelle was the one that comes in between. To be honest, I was kind of devastated. One of my best friends.

 

Seriously, I do not know what to say. I really don't dare to trust friends anymore. I don't even know how to put in trust in my next relationship (if there is one). I really don't know. It is so freaking scaring me.

Well, today had been good SO FAR. I hope he does not spoil my mood.

 

At least Vamp Zann is in my list, that adds some points to my overall happiness meter. =P

 

Something to wonder. And my love number is 3!

 

Your LOVE NUMBER is 1 if your birth
date falls on: 1st, 10th, 19th and 28th

Your LOVE NUMBER is 2 if your birth
date falls on: 2nd, 11th, 20th and 29th

Your LOVE NUMBER is 3 if your birth
date falls on: 3rd, 12th, 21st and 30th

Your LOVE NUMBER is 4 if your birth
date falls on: 4th, 13th, 22nd and 31st

Your LOVE NUMBER is 5 if your birth
date falls on: 5th, 14th and 23rd

Your LOVE NUMBER is 6 if your birth
date falls on: 6th, 15th and 24th

Your LOVE NUMBER is 7 if your birth
date falls on: 7th, 16th and 25th

Your LOVE NUMBER is 8 if your birth
date falls on: 8th, 17th and 26th

Your LOVE NUMBER is 9 if your birth
date falls on: 9th, 18th and 27th

Here is what your LOVE NUMBER says
about you...

1. You are affectionate and passionate.
At times, however, your strong
personality can be a bit overpowering,
scaring off potential suitors! Try to
curb that intensity every now and then
and you may get a chance to find
Mr./Ms. Right.
`` Your love match ; Someone who
doesn't
mind being dominated once in a while.

2. You are described as ideal partner,
loving and romantic. In fact, one of
your life's priority goals is to find
the love of your life. But remember to
keep it real, too or else, no guy out
there will ever meet your expectations.
`` Your love match ; Someone who isn't
afraid to bring you back to earth from
movie- romance land.

3. Attractive, imaginative, outgoing,
loyal and generous too. You definitely
don't run out of admirers. Just be
careful of those who will take
advantage of your kind nature.
`` Your love match ; Someone who wants
to know more about you, rather than
talk
about himself.

4. You fall in and out of love so
easily. Could it be because you often
mistake infatuation for the real
thing? Resist being impulsive when it
comes to love and take your time to
know the guy.
`` Your love match ; Someone who is
patient and can tolerate your erratic
behavior.

5.You go from one emotion to another
so fast and so often, it's hard to
keep track! but your intelligent. You
are also bold and daring, and you
enjoy the finer things in life.
`` Your love match ; Someone who can
accept that he may not be your no.1
priority.

6. You are the charmer but you can also
be warm and nurturing. But beware of
the green-eyed monster in you. Your
needs or affection can make you
clingy. And one more thing, stop going
after unavailable guys!
`` Your love match ; Someone who can
make you feel secure.

7. Your a deep thinker who happens to
be romantic, gentle and sensitive. Seek
someone who will love you as much as
you love him, someone just as tender
and generous. Be careful of those who
will take advantage of your idealistic
nature.
`` Your love match ; A one-woman/man
who is ready for commitment.

8. You are sophisticated and at the
top of ur game. Being confident,
independent and very successful in
your career,. Some may see you as cold
and detached. But, when you find the
right guy, you can be quite passionate.
`` Your love match ; Someone who is
trustworthy.

9. Creative, intuitive and imaginative,
these three words describe you best.
You are also quite impulsive when it
comes to love, making your lovelife
unpredictable. You are also passionate
and loyal.
`` Your love match ; Someone who digs
and understands your artistic nature.